…I Still Haven’t Recovered From It. I Don’t Know If I Can Continue This Marriage
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First of all, thank you anybody who reads this. I made this account but didn’t have the strength to post in the first time. I have a hard time getting anything done these days, I have severe postpartum depression. I am really sorry, English is not my first language so I apologize for the mistakes.
To the point: My husband who I thought I loved very much was a horrible, cruel, childish version of himself when I was in
What really hurt me was after the birth. I had a very difficult
This happened in summer and I still don’t feel alright. My mother keeps telling me it’s my postpartum brain that is blowing everything out of proportion. I’m too ashamed to tell my friends who think everything is going great here. I feel like something broke inside of me that day. I don’t know if I love him or want to continue with him. We have fought over and over, he has apologized a million times. Asks me, am I not allowed to have one bad day? I was tired too.
He has talked about another child. I can’t give birth again with someone who left me feeling completely unsafe. He didn’t take care of me the one time I really needed someone to take care of me and when I was vulnerable.
I don’t have any friends here and I’m alone every day all day. I don’t want to divorce and do that to my son, at the same time I don’t want to continue this. I’m so miserable I’ve had horrible thoughts. I left everything to be with him in another country and now it’s ruined.
I feel like I’m trapped.
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